Playa

I wanna live e lyf a playa.

But dun really have the flavor.

Wanna live e life of a lover,

But rather be a dreamer.

Looking 4 something dat isn't there.

Holding on hope dat wouldn't care.

Baby, to this day I dun blieve.

Dat all i do is jus grieve.

I wanted 2 keep wat's urs.

But things went off course.

Blessing in disguise.

Maybe u didn't want 2 i guess.

Sunday, February 27, 2005 at 08:59 PM in Just Being Sober

Frustrations - Part 2

Talk abt luv.

N u thnk u noe wat it means?

2 b in it n call it true?

Wat do u feel tellg so many othrs,

who's in luv wif u, dat ur feelg it too?

Jus to realise its dat u nvr really do.

Go n play kites. Cos it bring u heights.

Believing in it.

N 2 tell me ur waitg 2b in luv wif me.

Bt wat u did, had destroyed me.

Saturday, February 26, 2005 at 01:22 AM in Just Being Sober

That Call

Sorry for suffocating

wat e hel m i talkg abt?

Cant i jus go in w/out gettg out?

At 9t, i cnt be alone.

Cos i do nuthg bt whine n groan.

wat m i tryg 2 do?

Pickg maself up, or jus kpg blue?

One after anthr i kp doing.

Addg e list 2 crimes i'm committing.

My words r twistg.

N i dunno who m i confusing

Tuesday, February 22, 2005 at 03:13 PM in So Sad

Me Me Me

Dun tell me abt me

Cos u dun even know me

I dun care wat u think of me

Just be brave enuf to tell me

I won't let u make me

wat even trying to break me

I just wanna be me

Even if u think I won't be happy

just let me be me

I'm done trying not to be me

I can't get over being sappy

But I just want me to pray for me

Unless u have time to for me

Tuesday, February 22, 2005 at 09:06 AM in Insane Crazy

Friends

Let me ask u a question

Wanna put ma words to action

Is there a criteria to be your friend?

Lay out the rules for me to bend?

You told me we can still be friends

But how come it seems I had to lend

Monday, February 21, 2005 at 05:49 AM in Just Being Sober

Assumption

Dun assume u know a person

Dat u want to stick with him for the rest of ur life

Dun regard love as it is,

and be confident enuf he'll make u his wife,

I dun wanna talk about love actually,

But the change in me was quite drastically,

I forego almost everything in the world,

Just to leave maself twisted up in curls.

Sunday, February 20, 2005 at 05:34 AM in In Within Me

Frustrations - Part 1

i wantd 2 lve bt y? Cos sum jerk came 2 drp by?

Made his say n left 4 e day.

I cldnt figure out wats gng on.

Bt m sure e dream hve long gone.

Y do i crack up 4 sum bitch?

Cant wait 4 her 2 find out he's a leech.

I can go bac now. But seems funny how.

U cant seem 2b real. At least dats how i feel.

Gt my own lyf 2 live.

Saturday, February 19, 2005 at 11:28 PM in Just Being Sober

Flirt

Can I just turn awy, wat's mine?

Can I just keep wat I find?

Cos I wan 2b happy.

And done being sappy.

Believe me, look in me.

There's nothing I can gif.

Not even a sec i spare with.

I can't learn not to be hurt.

But just know when's e time 2 flirt.

It's best I've seen 2 go.

At worst I'll hve a foe.

Saturday, February 19, 2005 at 09:33 AM in Just Being Sober

Wasted

Truth was out...

Could I not know what your thinking?

Cos i dunno wat ur saying.

Didnt want 2 fall any deeper,

n just leave me so much than sober.

All i nd is u 2c.

Dis isnt wat i want it 2b.

Cld help maself if i m under.

Bt tryg 2 gt maself over.

Over u.

I jas want to have something I never could be.

I jas want to see something I never could reach.

Be open 2 me.

Saturday, February 19, 2005 at 09:25 AM in So Sad

Mistake

~~I shall cherish every moment, the best way I can.~~

~~I can only afford to dream.. n not even hope..~~

If I'm to say I'm ready to see you go,

I'm lying.

If I'm to say I'm ready to be hurt,

I'm boasting.

I've never plan it this way.

Never want to come to this day

Was never trying to impress you

Like I said, I just wan to be friends with you

I'm sorry if I've been naive

But knowing you, not all things are there for you to believe

Just this once allow me to be emotional.

Apologies if it's getting personal.

Don't want to acknowledge its love that I feel.

Cause I'm not sure if this is real.

Plus, I don't want to make mistake.

And seems, the friendship is now at stake

I don't want to fall deep

And find out its too late

And realise, its just memories that I can keep.

And going through the times that ache

Friendship is all I seek

Cause I know its impossible dat I'll be the pick

Be my friend all right?

The one who keeps me up all night...

Or should I say the one who shows me the light.

Let me smile..

At least for awhile..

Saturday, February 19, 2005 at 03:14 AM in So Sad