My Neopet World

In the Queen's English accent I shall speak. =P

In the world of neopets, I own a pet that works, or indeed earn for me by playing games.

I took good care of her. Showered, played with her. And I would put her up in 6 star hotels with room service, spa, recreation. You name it. I pampered her with luxuries that only Neopets can enjoy. I would send her away if I knew I was too busy to be checking on her now and then. The longest I ever left her was 4 months. And when I came back, she'd only be too happy to see me and wanted to play with me.

She's an Acara. In blue, one of my favourite colours. I named her Iona_53.

She's an agile creature. She'd brought me back things that I couldn't get elsewhere. With her versatile nature, she's always on the go. I didn't pamper her with lots of food though. I didn't want her to grow fat like me.

Blue Acara "Isn't she cute?"

I wanted her to be active and playful, whilst she's still young. I'd spent time with her. Bathing and playing with her. Scarab 21 was her favourite. And Cheat was next on the list.

I'd see her jumped with glee. Winning that points for me. For she knew that, the points meant money for me. And that cute little face, refusing the food that I was feeding if she already had enough. Not forgetting the angry red eyes if I made a bad move and causing her to lose the game. But Iona had always been forgiving. She'd still call me the best owner. And how much she missed me when I was gone. The sweet, mischievious Iona.

However, I don't see that pretty little thing now.

This was what happened.

One fine day, I was checking my items. I realised Iona brought back a magical stone. A green one. Like all the other stones, I'd usually safe kept it for her, in case they might be useful for her battles. But somehow, that stone had a magnetic force and released itself from its translucent covers. And went straight to Iona. Thinking it was like any other candies that I gave before, she welcomed the presence of the green stone and tried chewing it. The stone just melted in her mouth.

*POOF*

In seconds, Iona transformed. From the beautiful Acara that had always made my day, to a green Uni that I am never proud of. And I have stopped feeding her. She's dying and she's sick.

Deep down, I know, it is still the same Iona. But I just can't bring myself to like, feed or pamper her like I used to.

I miss my Acara. A lot. I want my old Iona_53 back.

Anybody has any idea?

Green Uni

Mana peh English accent jer..eksen adalah..Hehe....

Nov 19, '07 4:38 AM

Someone I Call... F.R.I.E.N.D.

I am a friend who'll accompany u when u have nobody and blame u if I didn't get to do things I want just because I was there for u. Seek refuge in solitude is always the best way.

I am a friend who'll listen 2 ur dreams and other things and mocking at em behind ur back. In the least, I'd give dat sinister smile to them. And am careful with who I am sharing with.

I make jokes out of ur flaws with the other friends even without feeling guilty abt it. Even if I do, I am pretty sure u make fun of me too with the same ppl or some other people. I'd try to be flawless.

I blame u for everything I didn't get or want because u never wanted me to have more than u. Even if u hoped e best for me, it wasn't sincere. Nice words have limitations...

I'd tell ur secrets to others knowing that my intention is to help, even though I promised u I won't. U can't trust no one.

At ma worst, I'll bad mouth u for all e things u really r or not. I'll rake up e past, things that I did for u, then u never did anything in return. Not even a word of thanks. I dun wish to be indebted to u. In wateva way there is.

I am a friend that prolly u won't call a fren at all.

Dat's y I dun believe in best friends.

Scary isn't it?

Nov 8, '07 9:42 PM

Turn Back Time

I was supposed to blog this out last night, but I couldn't think straight. Was feeling sick n e tummy was really aching. Prolly I ate too fast at dinner. So tonight, I am much better. Need to blog this out before e creativity runs out again. Hehe..

On the way back home yday, I was looking thru ma calendar and realised, e day before was a friend's bday. Correction - An old friend. Not really...an ex sch mate. N I realised, ten years has passed since the last time I gave her a bday present. I was trying to recall what did I gave her. But on second thots, I might not have gotten anything at all.. Hehe..

Ten years eh...

Have u ever thot of how things could be if u were given a second chance to relive that moment again?

I definitely do... a LOT of times. In this instance, I wish I could be given a 2nd chance 10 yrs back..Let's forward it a bit..9 yrs back.. to tell her that I am willing to forgo everything else..n wld ask for that friendship back..even at dat pt..I was really hurt n I thought, (still think) sumwhat..I was e victim.

U know e feelings, when u try to recall past events.. Those moments, dat made u proud, dat u wish u can repeat the particular events again n again. Angry moments, that u'd never thot u could just blow ur top n not feeling guilty abt it..N thot dat..sum ppl myt have just deserved 'em in e first place..N those hurting moments...that even e funniest joke or act is not able to let u put on a smile..or grin in e least. N those moments of committing mistakes n regrets...

Some ppl, (maybe like u, reading this) may look at me negatively and will tell me straight to ma face to move on. Believe me, I no longer am living in ma past like I used to few yrs back. Those times wld even be more difficult for me to handle, for I could just sit there, wondering, reminicsing, whining n sorts..in solitude.

But now, when I look back, I try to pick up e pieces. And if sumhow they're still in ma ctrl, I'd try to fix 'em back. But if things were not, I'll just let it be.. n try to understand e lessons being taught. N keeping in mind..These are all what God had planned... for He only knows what's best for me. But some other things..I can't help it n wonder what cld happen...Well..U noe e "What ifs?" Hehe..dat is sooo me..

So here. are some of e events in ma life (that I am comfy to share of course) that sumtimes I wish.. am given a 2nd chance at:

- That particular day in 97...to meet 'him' behind e sch canteen..Hehe.

- Early1998 Prank calls... akhekhekhe..

- April 2001 Shld have known better

- End 1999 shld have just gotten dat diploma!! *stubbornness got e better out of me*

- Mid 1991 if only I was careful, dat I didn't lose that piece of paper.

But then again, I'd just tell maself.

The path that I had taken, has made me into who I am today. And I am grateful that I am not any worse than now. And the path ahead of me, is just waiting for me to discover, explore, learn and live. And all with God's will.

But still...this wandering mind of mine..sumtimes fail to understand..