2 A.M

Put down the pretences
And embrace your flaws
Hold up ur defences
And avoid the loss

Hungry vessels have been richly fed
Atoning sins for the many times commited
For all the past that was filled with bad
In the overdue anger, the dreams wilted.

Look away, when you've done so much
Head this way, when you feel the touch
No second thoughts nor a single hunch
Place in between n give it a crunch

Day 51

Woken up with mixed feelings. Aftermath of last night's dream. Involved my uncles and an aunt. Finding a husband for me. It is quite rare to have them in my dreams. Mum said, they might have discussed amongst themselves about me settling down. 

Actually, I wouldn't mind the idea. But my only concern with matchmaking, can he truly accept me for who I really am. For the past I had. For the flaws and virtues of mine.

On the other hand, if he is meant to be my soulmate, it will not be a problem. 

Few days ago, I was declared as his most favourite person in the world by Aaron. I hoped to ask him what is that suppose to mean. Are those just merely words? Should I even jump for joy?

At times, I just don't know if it's just wishful thinking on my part. In a way or another, I am holding to his words.

Day 40

9 Days later... And I've not been writing. But in fact, I've lot so of things to update. Like Baini's wedding.. The neverending work problem. Aaron.. Joy.. Naz.. But I guess it's the same usual 'complains'. 

However for 1 reason now was last night's dream. How nice it was.. And I didn't want it to end in a way. It felt so real when I was waking up. Damn real. I dreamt of Hasmi. In the dreams, he was like asking me out.. Pleasant and all.. And I managed to apologise to him for the kind of distress I put him through at 1 point of time. And he was so forgiving towards me that he looked me up at my place after that. 

I really hoped that I didn't leave him with a very bad impression of me. At least not forever.. 

=D