Wasted 5

Dun wanna expect anything in return.

But a friendship will be nice.

Dun wanna accept anything as favour.

But a relationship will be better.

Dun want u to know anything.

But something will be easier.

But dun wanna u 2 luv, cos it'll jus end up wif nuthg.

Its best dat u dun c, but better if u noe.

Although pretence the only way out.

But lyk u said, enuf is enuf.

Saturday, January 29, 2005 at 10:54 AM in So Sad

Whine - Wishful thinking comes from within

I'd lyk 2 b.

Happy? I guess.

In luv? I wish.

U c, things was suppose 2b brighter n better.

Bt, sun doesn't want 2 shine on me...

Yet kp setting on me.

I wld lyk 2c e sunrise...

Am holdg on dat thgs will come 2 lyt.

Bt in dis darkness, cn i survive?

Grains flowing, hair balding.

Leaves drying, n luv dying..

Bt I wont die

Friday, January 28, 2005 at 08:18 PM in Just Being Sober

~~A day so short but gave me hope~~

Hmmm, can I take your order?

Martell with green tea please.

Sorry sir, but I think you are sick for this

It's just a waste of my money

But sir, it's e doctor that you need to see.

I'm used to not taking care of myself.

Like duh? I'm here on the shelf.

But, I don't need all these attention

Sorry, but I have all the time to show my affection

Can you just stop this?

Yes, but do add me in the list.

Ironic?

Chaotic is the best

Anyway, u missed being nagged at..

Friday, January 28, 2005 at 07:59 PM in So Sad

Whine - Gone r the sleepless nights..n more to come

Promises i made is gone now cos i choose 2.

Bt my luv is stil there...

Nt sure who is it 4 nw. 4 u who left me hanging?

Or 4 him who nvr really exist.

I quote white flag cos dats hw i really feel.

Figure me out, bt dun bother tellg me u understand.

Cos things have nvr bn so swell, i nvr really felt dis well

Thursday, January 27, 2005 at 08:48 AM in Just Being Sober

Wasted 4

I'm nt suppose 2 fall 4 u.

I've drawn dat line. N so did u.

If u wont let me fall 4 u

I wish there was a better way 2 knw u.

I feel u, i do.

Bt wont want 2 luv u, i dun.

Will be happy than nothing.

Cheers 4 e frenship.

Mourn 4 e feelings.

B it u or any1 else, thank u 4 being in e list

Thursday, January 27, 2005 at 08:29 AM in So Sad

Wasted 3

I believe in fairy tales n happy endings...

N dats not gonna change except 4 dis.

i used 2 dream 2 b rescued by a knight in shining armour...

Bt dis once, i wish 2b ur saviour.

The one to heal u in favour.

N only want to make u feel better...

Dat's not all up to me...

Just if u let me...

Wednesday, January 26, 2005 at 00:57 AM in So Sad

Wasted 2

If only I had e power to order, wat luv is supposed 2b.

Be it me or you, love is what we seek.

I would advise u 2 open ur heart 2 others who's willing 2 love u.

But I would advise myself not 2 b hopeful cos changes take place ryt in front of u.

I quote him saying it's nice to love n b loved.

N I tell myself it hurts wen trust died n sacrifices wasted.

Wednesday, January 26, 2005 at 00:21 AM in So Sad

Truth

Living in my dreams is wat my brain told me.

Living in reality is wat my heart advised me

I dun they agree u myt ask me

I wish i cld ans me. wil be hoping 2 free me

Wish there's ans 4 me so dat my dream is reality

Bt, my conscience tells me 2b true

Sad thing is i can nvr get thru

Monday, January 24, 2005 at 02:04 AM in Just Being Sober

Whine - Messed up.. n still am

How ironic when i'm hm bt feeling so lost.

hw funny wen i'm missg u bt dun wan 2 wait 4 ur calls.

hw silly wen i'm open bt still m naive.

hw crazy 2b in luv bt m sick 2b in it.

hw worse cn it get hopg 4 sumthg is barely there

hw deep cn it be 4 e hurt i have 2 bear

Monday, January 24, 2005 at 08:59 AM in Just Being Sober

Wasted 1

Saw how love & sacrifices gone to waste

Saw a man with full of time n trust is all outta faith.

Wish something could be done.

But, I'm the same 2.

Knowing u shows me wat all these mean.

I'm not falling 4 u.

But just learning 2 know u...

Monday, January 24, 2005 at 08:36 AM in So Sad

Whine - So lost..

Seems funny how I miss u terribly

Seems awfully how I want to move on

I'm tied down n messed up

Want to fall in love but he's free

Want to be in love but he's unavailable

Feel free 2 fill me in.

But b it me

Monday, January 24, 2005 at 02:36 AM in Just Being Sober

Whine

In the middle of the crossroads of lust & love

Falling in love isn't what I'm looking for

To be in love is what I look forward to

I ask myself if you'll still be mine

He asks himself if I'll still be his.

Why things are the way it wasn't to be

Could you be my saviour

Help me out…

Sunday, January 23, 2005 at 11:10 AM in Just Being Sober

Blinded 5

Lying beside me,

Sleeping so soundly..

Without the kiss..

Not even a gd night wish..

What more the need of ma comfort..

Why the hell did i get so blinded?

Baby, do u luv me?

Baby, am I just a piece of puzzle 2 u?

Baby, will u leave me?

I think so 2.

But baby, do u hate me?

Baby, did u miss me?

Baby, would u hold me?

Baby, would u fill me?

Baby, will u marry me?

Baby, can u hear me?

Oh baby, is dis too much for you?

I'm sorry baby.

I'm just too in love with u...

Wednesday, January 19, 2005 at 10:10 AM in Just Being Sober

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Blinded 4

Was hoping it'll work out fine.. maybe, still am

I am looking forward 4 tonyt.

Although it means i hve 2 hide.

In my dreams, there's only me n u.

In my life, I'll keep loving u.

I dreamt of running, but I'm just too heavy.

I dreamt of leaving, but I'm just too lazy.

Webs spinning, paths crossing.

I want 2 live, but jas in my dreams.

Cos when reality slaps me, I'll just be still.

Tuesday, January 18, 2005 at 11:46 PM in Just Being Sober

Blinded 3

Waiting in line for ma time..

I wanted to have lunch with u.

But u said u'll b having it wif her.

Cant b selfish right?

But I told myself n felt gd.

Cos I'm gonna hve lunch with u for e rest of my life wen all these r over.

Not jas lunch.

There'll be breakfast, afternoon tea, dinner n late-night supper.

At e meantime, I shall withstand the hunger.

Saturday, January 15, 2005 at 09:38 PM in Just Being Sober

Blinded 2

It was time that I see you

Ur love ur sorrow.

Ur smile, the hollow.

The time should be arriving anytime soon.

To be glad, to be sad.

Opening up as it should be.

Loving u was e best test i ever sat.

Hating u was e best bet i ever get.

Thursday, January 13, 2005 at 06:55 AM in Just Being Sober

Blinded 1

I believe in faith n trust.

Everyone has his own definition.

Even it means hurt 2 others.

It still means love to me.

Others won't want 2 understand.

But I rather live in my dreams

Thursday, January 13, 2005 at 03:48 AM in Just Being Sober

Waiting 5

Apologies i asked

Regrets i show

Love i give

Hope i dream

U i believe

She i know

But time will nvr leave

And lust wil always grow

Wednesday, January 12, 2005 at 10:03 AM in Just Being Sober

Waiting 4

i'm happy if ur happy

i'm sad if ur sad

i'm sappy if ur sappy

I'm glad if ur glad

Only if u love me too

Bt, u do n nt shw me.

N its ok wif no two

Wednesday, January 12, 2005 at 01:28 AM in Just Being Sober

Waiting 3

I took out my pen, pen down sum thoughts

Thought it over wat riddle will do

To make me see,

To make me free wat u could gimme

Guess promises shouldn't be

I hate u so much it hurts

I love u so much it bleeds

I'll take my leave

U take ur love

I'll b ur dream

U be my hope

Tuesday, January 11, 2005 at 10:10 AM in Just Being Sober

Waiting 2

Today i began wif cry n tears

Today i started wif guilt n shame

How do i end wif smile n hope?

How do i finish wif happy n gay?

Guess I'd be a star wif fame n money

Do u get me honey?

I think u dun... Cos i didn't

I'll be outside if u need me

Cos I'm never in

Keep me smiling.

Stop me crying

Monday, January 10, 2005 at 06:24 GMT AM in Just Being Sober

Waiting 1

I'd rather run than cry

I'd rather die than fly

But I rather dream n lie

Than to c u smile

And I'd rather u cry n fly

Than u smile n die

Wish dat ur happy

Wish dat ur filthy

Wish dat ur dreamy

Wish dat ur bloomy

Cry 4 me

Like 4 me

Love 4 me

Die for him

Saturday, January 08, 2005 at 07:32 PM GMT in Just Being Sober

YOU

~Time spent... to know, to love, to sacrifice & wasted~

You use to tell me you can't sleep at night

You use to tell me to sing you lullaby

Although it means I'll sleep much later

Thought was honoured to be

Till i realised if it isn't wasn't me

Thought I gave you what no one couldn't

Thought I love you like no one couldn't

And you loved like I'm the only love you have

but does it mean to give everything?

That's nuthing left for me?

Just left four letter word which is so powerful

Dat U & me dunno wat it means

Cos if we knew, it wouldn't be dis bad

It wouldn't be so sad

If I knew I never really had

It was you who wouldn't understand

Why I led the life I did

It was you who said u'll get me fix

And so I thought

Now, I've got no one to blame

This thing I have caused ma name

"Suddenly" wasn't meant to be

Got nowhere to run

Nowhere to hide

Could just wish

And just dream..

Sunday, January 02, 2005 at 08:41 AM GMT