Point of View - 2

09 Aug 2007

As much as I am falling for u now
For years to come will it stay e same?
As much as U adore me now
In e future will u be calling me names?

The sparks are flying now
And soon the flames will die
When it does, will your love be gone
And praying it'll die too?

For so much is done..
For so much is said..
Watching e sun..
Shining brightly red..

Will u keep trying or will u admit its dying?
And as u hold ma hands n watch it going..
And when the time is up.. U will tell me ur leaving..
Wifout e effort of having it rekindling..

For a moment or two..
I'd like to trade shoes wif u..
Trying so hard to see ur point of view..
The reasons that kept u blue..

I can't promise u I'll still b e same..
But do not force me to change ma name..
For I am whom u met yesterday..
With lessons learnt day by day..

If its confusing u..
I'm confused even more..
Waiting for e time due..
Still finding wats e core..

I wish to put my head to sleep now..
Bt my mind is so wide awake..
Forcing maself to sleep somehow..
N tmrw I'll sure b late..

AGAIN!!

Hehe.. 

This piece was written 5 years ago. Damn.. I really want this back. As in my flair in writing describing what I feel from my observations. Have I really lost it?

On another note.. I am still skeptic of this thing called love. Because I never want to go back to where I've been before.. Like how I described it above.

But the irony of it, I want to experience it somehow.

It's been too long..

"Hadirmu menyempurnakan aku"

Finding that one who fits in perfectly, is definitely like playing the Kiko Match at the most difficult level.. If it was that simple.

"I wished to be swept off my feet and fall for you deeply .. Every day.." 
No wonder I am labelled as a Fantasizer. Because I want my life to be written like a fairy tale. Then again, it's not ended yet. So my Happily Ever After has yet to be found.

Life is full of surprises. And funny how.. bizarre things happen when you least expect them. Either you embrace or resist them. Experience it is.. Whether good or bad. You live in it. You learn from it.

So, I was given a chance to experience that moment where you feel like a princess. A bit too late for me to be experiencing it.. But it is beautiful somehow.

Confused as ever.

Of course. It has been written who I will be with. Or not.

"Still dreaming .. "

I really don't know what's with me and dreams..

Last night.. Saw the ex..

He came to apologize to mum.. And promise he won't hurt again n sorts.. But when he is right with me.. He was even meaner than before..

Then.. I saw Aaron.. He too came back to apologise.. n he reasoned out why he didn't 'keep his promise'.. He put on weight though.. Well.. We tried to work it out.. But along the way.. It didn't happen again..

Next.. A cousin, married with 3 kids in real life, got divorced and proposed to me. It didn't give me that incest feeling though. More like, i felt protected and secured with him. I felt like he truly cares for me. And one of the things he mentioned was like something about our family knowing each other.

Aissh..

On another note.. Ramadhan is leaving really fast. And it's the first Ramadhan that I am not able to perform or get the benefits of the last 10 nights of it. Upset.


Then again.. if others look forward to sleep to rest.. I guess in my case.. I sleep to dream.. =D

And I got to know that Aden was with my brothers last night..
Aiyoh!!